Disconnection For My Soul’s Protection

It was way past the time

for me to cut that vine

I had to let him go

And free my soul

The Spirits jolted me as I sat idly at my laptop.  It had me moving swiftly to my altar to do work.  As I assumed the Lotus position and went inward, my spirit guides had a message for me “Sesheta, let go!”  They would protect me.   When there is a deep spiritual connection, the dissolution must also be done spiritually to heal.

I had been putting his comfort ahead of mine and it was at a cost.  It was a  burden that I could no longer afford mentally or spiritually. Too many transgressions had not been acknowledged or addressed. Moments when there could have been lessons learned and growth could have taken place, created voids and caused distractions.  He often deflected.  I had to be clear with him.

If he wasn’t  prepared to check his ego enough to honor me as I honored him, we had to disconnect. Not temporarily and then come back to doing what we used to do.  We repeated that same pattern.  We couldn’t break  free.  I am freeing myself now to receive what I know I deserve. I can’t keep letting him back in. I am letting go with The Ancestors behind me. We both wanted the exact same things but we didn’t get it right to align.


This was because his ego made no allowances for trust, so sometimes he treated me like the enemy. His warrior self did not respond to my patience and tenderness. He just couldn’t soften up to receive what he needed and what he expressed that he was looking for. Perhaps he just wouldn’t.  He once told me that I needed to tone down my masculine energy and play up my feminine energy. I trusted his guidance and focused on becoming more tender to balance him.  He should have followed  his own instruction. He knew he struggled with it. He reminded me of it every time he said “I am too abrasive for you Sesheta.”  He has to find balance.  I love him but this was insane.  I wished him peace and blessings on his journey.  I cried soul cleansing tears, released the pain, then blew out the candles.


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Sesheta Khepra’s purpose is to be a vessel, a healer for her family/village/community. She wants to share the lessons she has learned as she continues to grow. She tries to administer healing words with love. She uses her writing to encourage people to be their most authentic self, to heal herself and others. Her goal is to influence, to inspire her circle to be open and connect. She contributes by sharing the most intimate parts of herself; by being vulnerable and transparent. She offers herself as service to those around her. When she has a peak experience she is appreciative, reverential, connected, available and in the moment. She is balanced and peaceful. Her heroines are Queen Afua and Oprah Winfrey. In a best friend she looks for sincerity, sense of humor, someone with the ability to hold her accountable and provide her guidance. She feels her unique skill is using words and sounds to make people feel deeply. Her best qualities in personal relationships are forgiveness, patience and tenderness.


  1. Amy-Sharee
    May 26, 2017

    Thank you for sharing this. This resonated with me – as I am in currently residing in this space. Thank you for this reminder that this spiritual work needs to be completed.

    • Sesheta Khepra
      May 26, 2017

      Give thanks Sis. Glad you connected. Yes indeed we must do the spiritual work in order to heal and give ourselves the closure we need. Rituals help us with that.

  2. Jetta
    December 26, 2017

    Wow………..just. Wow.
    I’m here at this very moment….sigh

    • Sesheta Khepra
      December 28, 2017

      Give thanks Sis for you coming to my site. Glad you can connect and it resonates. Hope you find solace knowing that you aren’t alone and that is why we are here together. We shall build strength with the lessons learned from this experience. Blessed Love

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